It’s that time of year again. No, not Halloween.
That’s right: NaNoWriMo is knocking at the door.
Frankly, it can’t start soon enough for me. I’m insanely anxious to start writing. I’ve explored my characters and settings as much as I can without actually writing my novel. I actually think I prepared too much, especially when writing out my character bios. Hopefully this doesn’t come back to haunt me.
In other news, I carved a pumpkin. But not just any pumpkin, oh no. That would be too easy. If you’ve heard of the musical [title of show], you’ve heard of the song Die Vampire Die!. To quote, “a vampire is any person or thought or feeling that stands between you and your creative self-expression”. It mentions three kinds of such vampires, the last being the vampire of despair.
It’ll wake you up at 4 am to say things like:
“Who do you think you’re kidding?”
“You look like a fool.”
“No matter how hard you try, you’ll never be good enough.”
Why is it that if some dude walked up to me on the subway platform
And said these things, I’d think he was a mentally ill asshole,
But if the vampire inside my head says it,
It’s the voice of reason?
So, I carved a physical representation of my vampire of despair [pictures will be posted later]. For two days I carved its nasty crooked mouth with its sharp vicious teeth, all while its yellow flaming eyes glared at me. Mocking me.
But no more. For on November 1st, I will destroy my vampire. I will smash him up so bad that you’ll never be able to tell he was anything other than pumpkin pie filling. I will toss him out with the garbage.
And I will take pictures to post over my computer screen to remind me that I am a vampire slayer. If I can do that, then I can sure as hell write a novel in 30 days.